Rhapsody of Love

Dedicated just to you. By now, I am sure no one will be viewing my blog except for you. Let fate decide when you will see this or will you ever see this at all. I guess we both believe in fate. Fate has let us meet but fate has not kept us together. Should we call it fate or should we call it resolution? You said that you are timid and do not dare to love anymore, somehow I have to agree that we are all afraid to believe in love as the more we love the harder it hurts. But... I rather have a beating heart then a stagnant one, one that is sad when I dont get to see you, one that is happy just to see you, one that is contented just by having you by my side. To love someone is to respect her and I know how hard it is for you, so I choose to let you go not because I dont treasure you, in retrospect it is because I love you too much. The pain I am going through should be the same as yours and I cant bear to see an unhappy you. It pains me not to message you and see you, but it pains me more to see you living in sadness and having to consider my feelings. So I harden my hard, to let go in order to love, to suffer in order for you to get happiness. I treasure all the time we had spent together. You will always have a special place in my heart as I know you had love me. It is painful and unfair to you and you have given up alot for me, I know. "Fate has always decided by itself, there is only one happiness" I agree that Fate has decided by itself but i know i have always try to create more opportunities so that fate will create way for me to pursue what I want. I also agree that there is only one happiness, which is why i dont squander trying to pursue my love and my happiness. To give up is to lose my soul, I never like to choose the easy way just to be comfortable, I always choose the right way and follow my heart. Yes it might be painful now, but it will be even more devastating if I were to live to an old age not pursuing what I love. But that is me. I know what you have went through before and I will respect your decision. I wouldn't say that you haven't consider being with me before but probably your heart is weak from all the hurt and you are not ready to be hurt again, what more to be hurt by me. So let me be the one to be hurt as loving you is to let me bear the hurt just to know you will be happy every single day. Maybe one day you will see this post, maybe it is 1 day, 1 week, 1 year or maybe you will not see it ever... But it is fine, i believe in fate and let it decide what pends out. Perhaps this little romance is best left here in this little blog, let me be your little angel that is living in the pain in hell just to plant a little love by seeing you having happiness in life. I would love a forever with you, maybe I already have a forever love as loving you this period of time might be forever for me as I will kept this love of ours in a special corner of my heart till I cease to breathe. Love you my baby panda...