Will always be there for you

Today is a depressing day... Not because of what happened to me but because what the one I love the dearest have went through because of my irresponsible actions... Seeing her being sad devastated me... Because I can't share her mental pain, share her emotion, share the physical pain... It is unfair that she has to go through this because of me... The little thing I can do is to accompany her... That alone is just a small thing I can do for her... I hated myself. I should be protecting her and I ended hurting her. But no more lament, I have to be strong and not let her worry and be concern of my feelings. From today onwards I will protect her, be there for her whenever she needs me. No one will take priority over her and other things can wait. She is my one and only concern. Right now I can only be here down at her block to be there for her. Told her I went back so that she will not be worried, silently waiting and be there if she needs anything... She is a strong lady and her tears really breaks my heart... I weep too but not when she is around, I will be strong for her. Today I love her even more, after what she went through, she ends up worrying that I haven't eaten... I have mixed feeling on this. I am both happy and angry, happy that she still cares for me, angry on myself that she didn't choose to scold me or reprimand me, she has the entire right to do so and I will let her vent out all her anger so that she will feel better... But she didn't... So right now, be strong and be there for her, whatever happen I will always love her and not let her be worried about me. Let me be the one to protect her in the future and never be her source of pain. Bring the smile back to her life and that will be my happiness too!