Strength from the Past
In a spam of 3 months, I have re-visited 2 places that I have gone with my ex-gf before. The funny thing is that I did not re-visit these 2 places with other people during the spam of time I was with her. Perhaps it is the feeling that I do not wish to go to a place where I have visited with her before to mix the fond memories I had with her with other people as I would prefer to allocate the memory of the place exclusively for her.
However ever since I have broken up with her, I have re-visited Bangkok in Feb and just went to Genting over the Good Friday weekend which coincidentally are the first 2 overseas trip that we have taken. The first trip to Bangkok brings back memories of what we have done over there, the shopping, the eating and the massage…. And I really start missing her company as she is really a very good sport when we are abroad, roaming as many places as possible. Seeing familiar scene in Genting, it once again reminds me of the fun I had with her over there. I remember taking a photo at the window overlooking the foggy scenery at First World Hotel. This time when I am back, I saw the same scenery and a warm feeling with a hint of pain filled me. The warm feeling is attributed to the sweet memories I had and the pain is because the person whom I had shared the memory with is no longer my gf. And there is a restaurant that we went to for lunch that I have came back but this time to use the internet service on top of the café. Every thing seems so familiar yet the activities and people I have done and went with are different- 景色依旧，人事已非.
Not that I am unhappy with these trips without her, as I have experienced different events in these 2 trips with different people that I went with. The re-visitations are fun as the food I ate, the places I go, the events that happen and the feeling are all whole new. As I tour the place again, I see familiar places that I have went with my ex-gf and can’t stop being nostalgic about the fun I had when I was there the last time. Going back to the 2 places, I have also realized that as a person mature in life with different mentality, increased financial means, different perspective of fun and changing lifestyle, they will prefer different kind of entertainment. In Thailand, I shop more, ate more and see more scenery. In Genting, I gamble more, sleep less and didn’t even touch the theme park (not to mention this time round I reach Genting in 3 plus hours, going at 180 km/hr and risk my life on the road!)
Too many things have happened since my last visit, and I have grown through the years. The re-visitation is really good as it brings back many fond memories that I had with my ex-gf. It also signifies that I have moved on in my love life as I am prepared to venture back to the same place with different people in my life. I know that although new memories are created but the old one still hold a special place in my heart that will never be replaced. I think these places I came back to is requested by my subconscious as it wants me to go back to these places and pick my soul back. I know I am a sentimental person that always find it hard to part with lost love, which is why I re-visit places I went before whenever I wish to move on.
We have to acknowledge that people change over the years, so do memories as they start to fade as new events happen in one’s life. Going back to these places helps me to preserve these memories so that the person who had once touched my life does not fade over time. I would like to preserve my image of her at that point in time where we had sweet memories so that it will always remind me that we had been happy before. However this does not warrant me to go into the pitfall into thinking that I should salvage anything as since we had both move on, past memories are not reference but just a keepsake of our love. Salvaging a love base on past feelings is unfair to both of us, as it does not reflect our current state of mindset and being. I would love for things to be what they used to be but I know these are just wishful thinking on my part as we have both matured and it can only be salvaged if both of us are willing to try hard enough.
This is just a blog to register my feeling at this point of time and the message it carries is that one should always remember the fond past as a reference that life is not bad at all as there are happy moments that we live in before. However do not get into the pitfall of living in the past as everyone has a past that we have to reminiscence on that give strength to us to live for the future, however if we are not going to move from the past to the future, we will never be able to face reality and live life strongly and meaningfully.
“Your past should give strength to your future, not stopping you from going to your future”
~ James Tan ~
However ever since I have broken up with her, I have re-visited Bangkok in Feb and just went to Genting over the Good Friday weekend which coincidentally are the first 2 overseas trip that we have taken. The first trip to Bangkok brings back memories of what we have done over there, the shopping, the eating and the massage…. And I really start missing her company as she is really a very good sport when we are abroad, roaming as many places as possible. Seeing familiar scene in Genting, it once again reminds me of the fun I had with her over there. I remember taking a photo at the window overlooking the foggy scenery at First World Hotel. This time when I am back, I saw the same scenery and a warm feeling with a hint of pain filled me. The warm feeling is attributed to the sweet memories I had and the pain is because the person whom I had shared the memory with is no longer my gf. And there is a restaurant that we went to for lunch that I have came back but this time to use the internet service on top of the café. Every thing seems so familiar yet the activities and people I have done and went with are different- 景色依旧，人事已非.
Not that I am unhappy with these trips without her, as I have experienced different events in these 2 trips with different people that I went with. The re-visitations are fun as the food I ate, the places I go, the events that happen and the feeling are all whole new. As I tour the place again, I see familiar places that I have went with my ex-gf and can’t stop being nostalgic about the fun I had when I was there the last time. Going back to the 2 places, I have also realized that as a person mature in life with different mentality, increased financial means, different perspective of fun and changing lifestyle, they will prefer different kind of entertainment. In Thailand, I shop more, ate more and see more scenery. In Genting, I gamble more, sleep less and didn’t even touch the theme park (not to mention this time round I reach Genting in 3 plus hours, going at 180 km/hr and risk my life on the road!)
Too many things have happened since my last visit, and I have grown through the years. The re-visitation is really good as it brings back many fond memories that I had with my ex-gf. It also signifies that I have moved on in my love life as I am prepared to venture back to the same place with different people in my life. I know that although new memories are created but the old one still hold a special place in my heart that will never be replaced. I think these places I came back to is requested by my subconscious as it wants me to go back to these places and pick my soul back. I know I am a sentimental person that always find it hard to part with lost love, which is why I re-visit places I went before whenever I wish to move on.
We have to acknowledge that people change over the years, so do memories as they start to fade as new events happen in one’s life. Going back to these places helps me to preserve these memories so that the person who had once touched my life does not fade over time. I would like to preserve my image of her at that point in time where we had sweet memories so that it will always remind me that we had been happy before. However this does not warrant me to go into the pitfall into thinking that I should salvage anything as since we had both move on, past memories are not reference but just a keepsake of our love. Salvaging a love base on past feelings is unfair to both of us, as it does not reflect our current state of mindset and being. I would love for things to be what they used to be but I know these are just wishful thinking on my part as we have both matured and it can only be salvaged if both of us are willing to try hard enough.
This is just a blog to register my feeling at this point of time and the message it carries is that one should always remember the fond past as a reference that life is not bad at all as there are happy moments that we live in before. However do not get into the pitfall of living in the past as everyone has a past that we have to reminiscence on that give strength to us to live for the future, however if we are not going to move from the past to the future, we will never be able to face reality and live life strongly and meaningfully.
“Your past should give strength to your future, not stopping you from going to your future”
~ James Tan ~
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